Houston Baby Photographer | Jacob is 18 Months
As I sit here in complete disbelief that our sweet little on is now 18 months, I can’t help but reflect upon motherhood; the joys, the sacrifices, the blessings and daily trials.
I stumbled upon a Facebook post the other day and it stopped me in my tracks. This excerp comes from Bumni Laditan, a successful author and mother. She is the author of The Honest Toddler, and posts frequently on Facebook about the daily struggles of motherhood and heartwarming moments that we all experience with our children. If you don’t follow her already, I highly recommend you do HERE. Be prepared to laugh a lot and cry some too.
I wanted to share her recent post regarding motherhood:
I sit down next to 21-year-old newly married, pregnant me. She has her face in her hands.
“Did I make a mistake? This is crazy. Everything you’ve said, your entire life…it looks impossible. Tell me the truth. If you could go back in time and undo it all, would you?”
I pause and then take her hand.
“You’re right, honey. It is impossible. More days than not I wake up angry, sad, tired, and scared. My head is always swirling with their needs. The washing is taking over my life. My entire existence is preparing meals nobody is grateful for. I wake up in the night just to worry and check their breath. I torture myself with the thought of something happening to one of them and it crushes my heart.
I don’t go to bed: I collapse into it and cling to the mattress like a life raft floating in the middle of a vast, churning ocean, no land in sight.
But listen. As these children use my body as soil to grow strong, they’ve given me something I wouldn’t trade for all the gold in the world. Every day as I rise from the previous day’s ashes, I’m introduced to a better version of myself. Every time they stretch my patience brittle, I deep sea dive into an ocean of selflessness and come up more giving than I’ve ever been.
Every time I hear one of them laugh, see them smile, or watch them sleep, I’m bathed in a love so hot it burns. It’s not the kind of love that expects Valentines or stirs butterflies, it’s the kind that rises and sets the sun faithfully.
Yes, it’s impossible. No, I’m not swimming, I’m treading. But don’t be afraid because even just one toddler hug, feeling those little arms grip you tight or having a child fall asleep heavy on your chest and listening to them breathe makes it worth it a million times over. You’ll take in the smell of their hair and it will fill all of the cracks in your heart making you feel like the richest woman in the world.
You’ll die a million times but you’ll be reborn by those moments a million and one. Welcome to motherhood.”
Rebecca Penny Photography is a Houston Baby Photographer also specializing in maternity, newborn, baby & child photography in Houston and surrounding areas including but not limited to Friendswood, Pearland, League City, Sugar Land, The Heights, River Oaks, Rice Village and The Woodlands.
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